kirchoff's law

i dont post anything in this few weeks. you know why? because i really find that it become harder for me to write something. its really difficult for me to express my feeling in writing. i just dont know. in every my writing i want it to be perfect and describe all about my feeling but then when i try to write something i will become 'buntu'. i am trying explain my feeling in writing. i want when i read my post i will be really satisfy with it, i want it to be real and it do show my feeling or my anger my sadness every fucking feeling that i feel in deep inside my heart.but now i dont even know what kind of bulshit i am talking about. sometime i felt writing is a gift to me but now and i dont see it as talent anymore. is it talent can gone if we not practising it for a long time? i know what i need, i need something to feel. a feeling that can help me to write and express i will describe about that feeling. and a little inspiration from other blog. *wink. its not really it will gone it just need something to make it stand. i miss u nucleophilic attack! ;pp