hell yeah!

im going to uitm s alam together with yana anndd pikaa. im so excited but the truth is im over exciter because i'll never be far away with aiman. never ever since we got the same course. huahahahah. how good is very good? i feel so good. but life is unpredictable rite? anything could happen. really whatever really do happening now. just like my life in matric. who ever can expect ttuutt tuutt and this ttuutt will ever happen but it do happen rite. okeyy enough. just think about good things okey. ((: i would like to say here i am so happy since i will be close to my sayng and my best friend, yana. nad of course with pika too. hehe. i love u guys. i dont know what really our life could be end up here. this is totally new. never been in university before but im really sure this could be my bestes experience. love all of youu. ready to rawk. hahhaahahah

sayang part 2

sayang. no other words for you except i do love you very much. the way you care about me show how lovely you are and i cant forget yours undeniable macho style. i just like all the way about you. everyday you make the feeling of 'missing you' growing stronger. sayang i do love you and i really hoping our relationship have a future and i want the bright one. you are so daring to me sayang when you teach me to drive even i do make a lot of mistake. your patience to me just so charming and make me hard to sleep remembering how sweet your treat sayang. sayangg, teach me how to drive again. i like it so much even i have to face the feeling of sickly missing you in the night. hehe. come to my dream sayang. i love you so much. ((:

sayang

sayang, i do miss u too. i miss you so much. i do really really want to meet you today. when you canceled our meeting for today, its call lying if i say im just fine with it. the truth is i crazy missing you honey. i miss you damn much. i miss warm hug from you but but i never put a blame on you sayang. and i may say that i'm not blaming on you but my reaction don't prove my words. ;pp i miss you sayang and i'm so sorry for being ego and bold. i'm sorry. there so many things in my mind but i can do nothing about it. i miss you sayang. we absolutely gonna go to date on next monday. and wednesday. on wednesday let watch movies together. i love you sayang. i love you so much and on monday i will give you my pendrive so you can watch the curious case of benjamin button and and next wednesday i will have somebody to discuss about it sayang. love you. ((:

grey's anatomy rawk!

who can ever not in love in this super brilliant series. its full with romantical and biological. love the show and very inspiring. the cast are very good and beautiful. i like cristina even many ppls hate it. she cool and so cool. she smart always done her best to get whatever she want.

Faith has to do with things that are not seen and hope with things that are not at hand.

some ppl may born with many talent. may of us just not discover her/his really potential. well i dont know what exactly im capable to do. i think sometime im very funny girl, i can make ppl laugh and most of them said i am so sengal. hehe. but it not really a tralent but it a give. what the different eh? i also dont know. HAHA. i really can talk a lot and make ppl comfortable with me (of course since im a joker u know) but it not happening all the time. let just say, it follow my mood. tik tok tik tok. if i really want to talk i will never get tired by talking all the time. but at the same time im really good shut up my mouth. macam mane eh nak cakap. ;pp okey lat still talking. sometime i really can be a VERRYY VEERRYY VERY VERRYY confident person. as im did that in my interview. hehe, but soo many time im not that a very confident person and so brave girl. sometime too confident can ruin yourself. ((: okeyy i just like to say i am veryy jelous to person can write so well. not many were gifted this talent and if you one of it you are so lucky. you can describe everything so well. it just like what happening to you before this and you write about it on your diary then when someone read about it, it do really like happening in front of him. seems like something you explain are so well and ppl so in love to read abouit it. i want that talent!

colour of butterfly

Your butterfly has truly emerged.
Bright, beautiful, symmetrical.
Blazing with colour.
Pinks for our love.
Deep reds for our hearts,
Our passions, our lips.
Yellows for our glow, our Light,
Our Spirits, our beautiful Sun.
Blues for our clear skies,
Our peace, our calm, your eyes.
Greens for our earth, our plants,
Our nature that surrounds
Our beautiful little bridge
That you built.
With hearts bonded and melted,
With pure love and sexiness,
With sheer poetry and excitement
Come fly with me.

this is super real!!

fyi dude. all these picture just a chalk art on floor!umm its an illusion its not really like that its the real it just has chalk art all over it the people are doing that to make the picture look cool ahah. so cool eh? very talented person. my favourite the one with crack road the biggest chalk art. i have to look really hard to believe i t just a sidewalk! the best so far. but the other is good one too. especially the last picture. it a lot of job too. ;pp

my first ever interview.

last monday, i and my father went to UM for my first ever interview to be a teacher. well not much actually to say about this interview as i think everyone know how lazy i am to make even a little preparation. mak and ayah look excited when they find out that i will go to this interview and especially mak yang nak sangat i be a teacher one day. she just hoping that i will get a bright teacher. i think be a teacher is quite fun. we can see many ppls and else. haha. i want to be a teacher but i want to be more than that. i want to have profesional career. i want to be an engineer. so many ppl will pandang tinggi on me. an most important i love the salary. i could get 5 digits! but as a teacher im noy sure. maybe to get 4k a month you have to be the a really good one teacher. hehe. well is fine for me to be a teacher. after all i did my best (not the best of best but i did as termampu. ;pp) on the interview even i didnt make any preparation. andd fyi,i prepare all my sijil (not all actually since i lost my wilderness and pspm 1. okey okey i know how careless it is.) on sunday night and i have to go for interview in the next monday well i know about the interview abou a week ago anddddd i am so bastyard. inever done my work so well. i may be a very clever girl and god have give me a vary intelligent brain but i waste it. i never work hard before and is not suprising the resuult i got. at first exam, i may lucky and not for second time. okey okey back to my interview. well i met a few friends, not really a friends, it more like a kenalan. hehe. i am very funny girl you know and i talkative person. so i do meet a few girls there and i tell you what. i dont make any preparation and im not scare at all!! that so good eh? hehe but when i have to wait outside i am nervous! huh. thanks god my nervous not destroy my speech. may be a little at first but hten i get to comfort level and i did well. not very well but i think is OKEYY. hehe. okey the interviewers ask me to teach something so i said okey i will teach organic chemistry but one of it refuse. huh. he said last student teach the same thing. thanks god, i was he 3rd or 4th student been interview. or else i may dont know what since in chemistry (for second sem) we only learn physical chemistry and organic chemistry. ;pp for first sem i not really remember. okey okey. so i will be teaching but what i will teach in front them? i teach hydrocarbon u know. hahahahah laugh laughh as u enjoy it feel the joy. hehe hydrocarbon is organic chemistry. one of it. but they dont know. ;pp

fatty little perot

sayangg i know im fat. argghh i just cant believe it. my perot have its own level. bodoh betol. gile! i hate lemak yang berlebihan. i love eat many things but i dont to keep it in my perot. get out of my perot. sayang kau kurang ajar cakap aku gemok. hahahahahahahah

kecewa

today i got my result and the grade that i get really disappointed me and my family also aiman. but all of them are very supporitive person. mak tak marah pun ayah cuma cakap. okla lebih dari 3. aimann. i dont know but i think he already pandang rendah to me and i can prove it. huh. but but but. actually he just expect me to get better. and i dont blame him. he give me few advices and we see if it works. ;pp ok ok back to my result. i am soooo kecewa. i never get less than 3.5 before and i really think i cant accept failure which are i think not good for me now but actually it good for me in the future. hehe. ayat putar putar eh. ;pp we can always have a good thing in our life but actually we can unless we work for it. and all work paid eh. ;pp i should get my lesson now and to be continueeedddd. grr. ;pp

kirchoff's law

i dont post anything in this few weeks. you know why? because i really find that it become harder for me to write something. its really difficult for me to express my feeling in writing. i just dont know. in every my writing i want it to be perfect and describe all about my feeling but then when i try to write something i will become 'buntu'. i am trying explain my feeling in writing. i want when i read my post i will be really satisfy with it, i want it to be real and it do show my feeling or my anger my sadness every fucking feeling that i feel in deep inside my heart.but now i dont even know what kind of bulshit i am talking about. sometime i felt writing is a gift to me but now and i dont see it as talent anymore. is it talent can gone if we not practising it for a long time? i know what i need, i need something to feel. a feeling that can help me to write and express i will describe about that feeling. and a little inspiration from other blog. *wink. its not really it will gone it just need something to make it stand. i miss u nucleophilic attack! ;pp

Mak insan mulia

Mak



mak,sorry.i just too busy with myself until i forgot about ppls around me. The fact is i love u so much mak. I never stop care about u. Thanks for rise me up and make me as i am now. I miss you so much and cant wait to celebrate your birthday. Selamat hari lahir mak. Rindu sangat tak sabar nk balik sabtu depan.

Electromagnetic induction

My body are so tired. My mind exhausted. I dont get enough sleep, i take less protein, my body are so weak even i already feed it with a lot of isotonic drink and grains. Sometime i feel like want to stop. But i cant. I cant quit. I hv to fight. 2 years ago, i fight just to continue my study here. I had made a promise that ill get an excellent result. I made it half way. So i cant quit. I hv to continue my journey. To fight whatever are coming and to fulfil my promise. So now. I've to make a sacrifice. I cant sleep because ill make my body weaker. I cant eat too much because it will me sleepy. I can only take kismis because it will help to generate my memory and i only drink nescafe and isotonic drink even it make me 'mual' because it provide me energy and avoid me from sleep. I am torturing my body but i dont mind and i want to get use of it. As long i get what i want.

Turn ON exam mode, switch OFf budak pemalas

Since final almost here. A few things going to transform in this 2 weeks.


1. Junk food turn to kismis kismis.


2. Lauk pauk like ayam,paru paru change to sayur sayuran like tempe dgn kacang.


3. Hi tea will be livita and on night wajib ada indocafe or nescafe but lately since indocafe dalam balang da keras, livita pun jalan je.


5. Most of the books no matter what subject will be beside the bed and will accompony me when i sleep.


6. More time will be spend to make over note then my own grooming.


7. Untidy room ; before ni pun tak ada la kemas sgt tp sekarang kalau tak kemas boleh guna alasan nak periksa da. ;p


8. Perot will be pampered with things 'i never buy it before because it quite expensive but i always dream of it' (eg; honey star) because i already torture my perot with healthy food.


9. Favourite mode; flight mode. But only works for 3 hours. Longer than that? Tak thn.

Wake up call

When it come to aiman,i just cant control myself. It so easy for to get mad to him. Sometime it just a small matter and im pretty sure i can consider on his side but i dont. I dont give him a chance at all. I dont even know why. after i done my isyak's pray, i feel in the mood to write. Syg, i know the reason behind all of this madness ;

1. Sayang tak nak buat c.o.d. baju Topshop yg b nak tu and yg b nak sgtttt. (Just thinking about it already make me geram.)

2. Sebab syg selalu point b dgn ckp b ada lelaki lain even salah taip msg pun syg da tuduh bukan bukan and u absolutely know it was wrong and never happen! In addition,syg tak mintak maaf pun pasal ari tu. U thought i just forgive and forget.

3. I am trying to forgive about it (even i hate it so much when u forced me to confess something that i am not) and just forget about it. But u never get the lesson rite. U love to accuse me! (*argh! Geram tau x!)

4. I still mad 5 words tu. Geram nya. U dont say sorry and u still not give me that 5 words. No more comment. Buat sakit hati.

5. Okey this one the latest one. Cinta ni byk cabaran. Kalau tak tahan baik jgn becinta. Huh. This one sound really silly. Much more than about 5 words. But this is me. Maybe i am being too emotional, or might be its reasonable for me to get mad. Huh. I just ask u to wake me up. Okey you will to do that but what ur afford?! Kalau setakat anta 4 msg en syg, baik tak payah langsung. Tak ada la aku sakit hati sangat. Susah sangat ke nak call. Haihh i am so mad. Berkira betol. Use la your so smart mind tu, u think dgn 4 msg tu someone will wake up ke? Nak sedar ada msg pn org tak sedar. Ah hentam la ayat keling ke. Huh.


I am mad syg. I already list down it. Okey much better now. Sorry for mad at u. I love you syg. Love u so much.

Maghrib

Today is thursday and its already almost night now. I dont really know what should i write down at this moment. Supposely i already take wudu' and get ready for maghrib's pray. But i still sit behind my bed. I am so sleepy right now. I just slept about 5 hrs last night ; it might sound normal, but i didnt take even a minute nap in the afternoon. Im really realllyyy sleepy now but i dont want to sleep, so i re-activate my brain by forcing it to make a new post even i dont have any idea what to write. Okeyy not sleepy anymore. Lets get moving and drink livita. Get ur going. Hehe

Merepek meraban sumpah seranah

Heyyai.i think hey-yai sound kinda cute. ;p teng teng teng..this is my story. Last night i drunk livita and it do re-energize me. I dont even feel tired at all. Just a little sleepy.even so,i cant sleep until at last i slept at 5 am. Supposely masa yg ada tu i should use to do more exercise and lot of reversion but as usual, I will waste it.haih bila nk sedar perempuan.bila nak gi belaja ni. Hmm,i want to talk about something else actually. Last night,sorry syg tapi b msg a boy i know from myspace. Just A msg ok. A msg,mean satu msg je. Maybe i felt some regret after that. Hell no! Tak menyesal pn. Sebenarnya rasa mls je nak reply. Semalam msg pn i just mention that i already got his num and ill save it. The truth, of course la tak simpan pn. Tak tau pn kat mana entah no tu ilang. As everyone already know myspace ni tempat nak bersuka ria je.syg dont worry eh,whatever u see in myspace it just a fact of life in myspace. Get what i mean? Hehe. B syg en awak je. Thats the major point. And u boy,thanks for give ur num yasterday. It was like super bosan sgt mlm td. Tak sedap la ayat aku ni dgn grammar berterabur tapi gi mampos je la. Aku bkn pandai sangat english. Muet pn band 3 je. Tapi aku mmg suka belagak. Hehe. Syg,want to see u soon!

Gila betol

Okey this is the problem. Aku ni perempuan sangap! Hahahahahaha. You know what just i did? Haha. I browsing ppl at myspace,looking for a men around 18 to 25;da tu xsedar diri betol nk cari lelaki umur 18,searching for some cute boys try to add them and make them as friends konon. But the truth is aku ialah perempuan gatal. Hahahahaha. Cant take the truth. Too hard to accept it. :p Aku perempuan yg mencari timba.hahahaha. Luckily i dont add any of them. I just realize whatthehell is going on with me. So i stop browsing for more boys. know why? All boy i been browsing of was in type 'rempit'. Mana la lelaki gagah yg cool lg di dunia myspace. So i change age range. Between 57 to 69. :-P gile gile tapi better than yg tadi. Hehe. Terok terok pun tadi sampai page 12 gak aku cari lelaki. Hehe. Whatthefuckinghell i was thinking in my mind? Desperate housewive? Hehe. No more boy ernie. Jom study fizik la. :))

5 words to you

You make me feel worthy.

Change to :

You make me so geram!

Sakit hati

Since this is my blog,so its give permission to write whatever i feel and if anyone dont like it or even feel annoy i dont give a damn asshole! Huh. Okey. I have one question. Is it so hard to make a sentence that contain only 5 words! Maybe it look so difficult for 'some ppl'. I know,its not worth to be mad for some foolish and childish stuff like this. But this is what i felt right now! Geram betol aku! Bukan aku mintak a paragraph! Argghh! Wtf man! Mintak tlg dgn engkau mmg ssh sgt en. Huh. I know. Emotional. Too emotional. Sorry but i really mad right now. Electrolysis ni mcm @?!*/+& !! Together with you,my life completely miserable! Dont blame me for been mad! I dont ask more,bg je la 5 perkataan tu. Tak payah la nak poyo nak kata tgh belaja elektrik la. Aku pn tgh belaja gak. Buat 1 ayat tu tak kan buat otak kau tetanggal pun. Tak susah mana pun kalau nak banding en dgn apa kau belajar. Haih im so mad right now. In addition,you dont even realize how mad i am right now. Thats totally shit and sucks!! Give me that 5 words and apologive to me. Then ill be fine syg! Sorry for harsh words.

Yeay and ouch!

Only few day left then ill say bye bye forever to kmph;hopefully insyallah.2 years had been so lonnggg and i dont think i cant take it anymore.yeay,many sweet memories while i was here and i tell u,i gonna be reallyy miss kmph.i hope my memory at here will be on my mind and will last forever.one more thing,i already berjasa to this clg eh.i made i love kmph shirt and it was like a trend here.many students bought our shirt and what i reall proud of,we done our shirt all by ourself!from designing to publishing ilovekmph's shirt.our bussines was working very well n we really satisfy.banyak sgt rintangannye.haih.igt lg tak yana,kita tido dkt hotel masria.yak!hehe.it suppose to be my nightmare but when i remember it back,it will make me laugh.ok wth i was talking about.hehe.in a nutshell,whatever shit youve been through before it will remind you how great your life. :-) i think so.hehe.thanks for bought i love kmph's shirt.it available in 3 colors which are black,white and electric blue (limited edition konon.hehe)

Electrochemistry

Hi i dont write anything yet for today since i dont have anything to write.anything good happen until now.oh yeah,i just been reserved a blue shirt from topshop at one of online shopping i just been reviewed last night.and u know,i already saw wani's blogshop!okkeyyy im totally fine just sometime i feel a lil annoy. (*sorry.) She sell her preloved items.not bad some of it still look fantastic and colorful.dont care at all....syg,can u help me pls?boleh tak syg cod baju topshop b tu?no thanks je laa.u cant eh?geram betol aku.mintak tlg sikit je.so hard ke syg??huh.ernie,dont know what to write yeah?hehe

Carbonyl.

Okey.set ur mind girl.focus.u will make this day as precious as u could.u are not going to waste ur time.no matter how,what or when.ill make sure,ur target today which are u hv to complete carbonyl,electrochemistry and termochemistry will complish.oh dear ernie,u said u want to be a teacher.so u suppose to hv a big determination.ernie syg,belaja la.buka la hatimu utk belajar.jgn main main eh.one more thing,just put on ur earphone,listen at maximum volume n ignore to all of distruction.set ur mind then goo!!!

aromatic compounds

Huh.i dont like this feeling.i dont even feel comfortable at all.i cant focus on my own note.i suppose done my note about aromatic compounds in just a few minutes.but i can even give half of my attention on it.my mind are leaving my body far away.i dont even know why i should keep stay at library even i cant concentrate in my study and my hand still not stop typing everything there are playing in my mind.stop ernie.focus pls.only few days left.then u are free.can i go home now?im not comfortable at all.