kirchoff's law

i dont post anything in this few weeks. you know why? because i really find that it become harder for me to write something. its really difficult for me to express my feeling in writing. i just dont know. in every my writing i want it to be perfect and describe all about my feeling but then when i try to write something i will become 'buntu'. i am trying explain my feeling in writing. i want when i read my post i will be really satisfy with it, i want it to be real and it do show my feeling or my anger my sadness every fucking feeling that i feel in deep inside my heart.but now i dont even know what kind of bulshit i am talking about. sometime i felt writing is a gift to me but now and i dont see it as talent anymore. is it talent can gone if we not practising it for a long time? i know what i need, i need something to feel. a feeling that can help me to write and express i will describe about that feeling. and a little inspiration from other blog. *wink. its not really it will gone it just need something to make it stand. i miss u nucleophilic attack! ;pp

Mak insan mulia

Mak



mak,sorry.i just too busy with myself until i forgot about ppls around me. The fact is i love u so much mak. I never stop care about u. Thanks for rise me up and make me as i am now. I miss you so much and cant wait to celebrate your birthday. Selamat hari lahir mak. Rindu sangat tak sabar nk balik sabtu depan.

Electromagnetic induction

My body are so tired. My mind exhausted. I dont get enough sleep, i take less protein, my body are so weak even i already feed it with a lot of isotonic drink and grains. Sometime i feel like want to stop. But i cant. I cant quit. I hv to fight. 2 years ago, i fight just to continue my study here. I had made a promise that ill get an excellent result. I made it half way. So i cant quit. I hv to continue my journey. To fight whatever are coming and to fulfil my promise. So now. I've to make a sacrifice. I cant sleep because ill make my body weaker. I cant eat too much because it will me sleepy. I can only take kismis because it will help to generate my memory and i only drink nescafe and isotonic drink even it make me 'mual' because it provide me energy and avoid me from sleep. I am torturing my body but i dont mind and i want to get use of it. As long i get what i want.

Turn ON exam mode, switch OFf budak pemalas

Since final almost here. A few things going to transform in this 2 weeks.


1. Junk food turn to kismis kismis.


2. Lauk pauk like ayam,paru paru change to sayur sayuran like tempe dgn kacang.


3. Hi tea will be livita and on night wajib ada indocafe or nescafe but lately since indocafe dalam balang da keras, livita pun jalan je.


5. Most of the books no matter what subject will be beside the bed and will accompony me when i sleep.


6. More time will be spend to make over note then my own grooming.


7. Untidy room ; before ni pun tak ada la kemas sgt tp sekarang kalau tak kemas boleh guna alasan nak periksa da. ;p


8. Perot will be pampered with things 'i never buy it before because it quite expensive but i always dream of it' (eg; honey star) because i already torture my perot with healthy food.


9. Favourite mode; flight mode. But only works for 3 hours. Longer than that? Tak thn.

Wake up call

When it come to aiman,i just cant control myself. It so easy for to get mad to him. Sometime it just a small matter and im pretty sure i can consider on his side but i dont. I dont give him a chance at all. I dont even know why. after i done my isyak's pray, i feel in the mood to write. Syg, i know the reason behind all of this madness ;

1. Sayang tak nak buat c.o.d. baju Topshop yg b nak tu and yg b nak sgtttt. (Just thinking about it already make me geram.)

2. Sebab syg selalu point b dgn ckp b ada lelaki lain even salah taip msg pun syg da tuduh bukan bukan and u absolutely know it was wrong and never happen! In addition,syg tak mintak maaf pun pasal ari tu. U thought i just forgive and forget.

3. I am trying to forgive about it (even i hate it so much when u forced me to confess something that i am not) and just forget about it. But u never get the lesson rite. U love to accuse me! (*argh! Geram tau x!)

4. I still mad 5 words tu. Geram nya. U dont say sorry and u still not give me that 5 words. No more comment. Buat sakit hati.

5. Okey this one the latest one. Cinta ni byk cabaran. Kalau tak tahan baik jgn becinta. Huh. This one sound really silly. Much more than about 5 words. But this is me. Maybe i am being too emotional, or might be its reasonable for me to get mad. Huh. I just ask u to wake me up. Okey you will to do that but what ur afford?! Kalau setakat anta 4 msg en syg, baik tak payah langsung. Tak ada la aku sakit hati sangat. Susah sangat ke nak call. Haihh i am so mad. Berkira betol. Use la your so smart mind tu, u think dgn 4 msg tu someone will wake up ke? Nak sedar ada msg pn org tak sedar. Ah hentam la ayat keling ke. Huh.


I am mad syg. I already list down it. Okey much better now. Sorry for mad at u. I love you syg. Love u so much.

Maghrib

Today is thursday and its already almost night now. I dont really know what should i write down at this moment. Supposely i already take wudu' and get ready for maghrib's pray. But i still sit behind my bed. I am so sleepy right now. I just slept about 5 hrs last night ; it might sound normal, but i didnt take even a minute nap in the afternoon. Im really realllyyy sleepy now but i dont want to sleep, so i re-activate my brain by forcing it to make a new post even i dont have any idea what to write. Okeyy not sleepy anymore. Lets get moving and drink livita. Get ur going. Hehe

Merepek meraban sumpah seranah

Heyyai.i think hey-yai sound kinda cute. ;p teng teng teng..this is my story. Last night i drunk livita and it do re-energize me. I dont even feel tired at all. Just a little sleepy.even so,i cant sleep until at last i slept at 5 am. Supposely masa yg ada tu i should use to do more exercise and lot of reversion but as usual, I will waste it.haih bila nk sedar perempuan.bila nak gi belaja ni. Hmm,i want to talk about something else actually. Last night,sorry syg tapi b msg a boy i know from myspace. Just A msg ok. A msg,mean satu msg je. Maybe i felt some regret after that. Hell no! Tak menyesal pn. Sebenarnya rasa mls je nak reply. Semalam msg pn i just mention that i already got his num and ill save it. The truth, of course la tak simpan pn. Tak tau pn kat mana entah no tu ilang. As everyone already know myspace ni tempat nak bersuka ria je.syg dont worry eh,whatever u see in myspace it just a fact of life in myspace. Get what i mean? Hehe. B syg en awak je. Thats the major point. And u boy,thanks for give ur num yasterday. It was like super bosan sgt mlm td. Tak sedap la ayat aku ni dgn grammar berterabur tapi gi mampos je la. Aku bkn pandai sangat english. Muet pn band 3 je. Tapi aku mmg suka belagak. Hehe. Syg,want to see u soon!

Gila betol

Okey this is the problem. Aku ni perempuan sangap! Hahahahahaha. You know what just i did? Haha. I browsing ppl at myspace,looking for a men around 18 to 25;da tu xsedar diri betol nk cari lelaki umur 18,searching for some cute boys try to add them and make them as friends konon. But the truth is aku ialah perempuan gatal. Hahahahaha. Cant take the truth. Too hard to accept it. :p Aku perempuan yg mencari timba.hahahaha. Luckily i dont add any of them. I just realize whatthehell is going on with me. So i stop browsing for more boys. know why? All boy i been browsing of was in type 'rempit'. Mana la lelaki gagah yg cool lg di dunia myspace. So i change age range. Between 57 to 69. :-P gile gile tapi better than yg tadi. Hehe. Terok terok pun tadi sampai page 12 gak aku cari lelaki. Hehe. Whatthefuckinghell i was thinking in my mind? Desperate housewive? Hehe. No more boy ernie. Jom study fizik la. :))

5 words to you

You make me feel worthy.

Change to :

You make me so geram!

Sakit hati

Since this is my blog,so its give permission to write whatever i feel and if anyone dont like it or even feel annoy i dont give a damn asshole! Huh. Okey. I have one question. Is it so hard to make a sentence that contain only 5 words! Maybe it look so difficult for 'some ppl'. I know,its not worth to be mad for some foolish and childish stuff like this. But this is what i felt right now! Geram betol aku! Bukan aku mintak a paragraph! Argghh! Wtf man! Mintak tlg dgn engkau mmg ssh sgt en. Huh. I know. Emotional. Too emotional. Sorry but i really mad right now. Electrolysis ni mcm @?!*/+& !! Together with you,my life completely miserable! Dont blame me for been mad! I dont ask more,bg je la 5 perkataan tu. Tak payah la nak poyo nak kata tgh belaja elektrik la. Aku pn tgh belaja gak. Buat 1 ayat tu tak kan buat otak kau tetanggal pun. Tak susah mana pun kalau nak banding en dgn apa kau belajar. Haih im so mad right now. In addition,you dont even realize how mad i am right now. Thats totally shit and sucks!! Give me that 5 words and apologive to me. Then ill be fine syg! Sorry for harsh words.

Yeay and ouch!

Only few day left then ill say bye bye forever to kmph;hopefully insyallah.2 years had been so lonnggg and i dont think i cant take it anymore.yeay,many sweet memories while i was here and i tell u,i gonna be reallyy miss kmph.i hope my memory at here will be on my mind and will last forever.one more thing,i already berjasa to this clg eh.i made i love kmph shirt and it was like a trend here.many students bought our shirt and what i reall proud of,we done our shirt all by ourself!from designing to publishing ilovekmph's shirt.our bussines was working very well n we really satisfy.banyak sgt rintangannye.haih.igt lg tak yana,kita tido dkt hotel masria.yak!hehe.it suppose to be my nightmare but when i remember it back,it will make me laugh.ok wth i was talking about.hehe.in a nutshell,whatever shit youve been through before it will remind you how great your life. :-) i think so.hehe.thanks for bought i love kmph's shirt.it available in 3 colors which are black,white and electric blue (limited edition konon.hehe)

Electrochemistry

Hi i dont write anything yet for today since i dont have anything to write.anything good happen until now.oh yeah,i just been reserved a blue shirt from topshop at one of online shopping i just been reviewed last night.and u know,i already saw wani's blogshop!okkeyyy im totally fine just sometime i feel a lil annoy. (*sorry.) She sell her preloved items.not bad some of it still look fantastic and colorful.dont care at all....syg,can u help me pls?boleh tak syg cod baju topshop b tu?no thanks je laa.u cant eh?geram betol aku.mintak tlg sikit je.so hard ke syg??huh.ernie,dont know what to write yeah?hehe

Carbonyl.

Okey.set ur mind girl.focus.u will make this day as precious as u could.u are not going to waste ur time.no matter how,what or when.ill make sure,ur target today which are u hv to complete carbonyl,electrochemistry and termochemistry will complish.oh dear ernie,u said u want to be a teacher.so u suppose to hv a big determination.ernie syg,belaja la.buka la hatimu utk belajar.jgn main main eh.one more thing,just put on ur earphone,listen at maximum volume n ignore to all of distruction.set ur mind then goo!!!

aromatic compounds

Huh.i dont like this feeling.i dont even feel comfortable at all.i cant focus on my own note.i suppose done my note about aromatic compounds in just a few minutes.but i can even give half of my attention on it.my mind are leaving my body far away.i dont even know why i should keep stay at library even i cant concentrate in my study and my hand still not stop typing everything there are playing in my mind.stop ernie.focus pls.only few days left.then u are free.can i go home now?im not comfortable at all.